False Starts
Residency and Exhibition
Artist-in-residence, Psychology Department, University of Bath
Exhibition in Artspace 3, work in progress, 2012

Mind Control (3 selected drawings from a series of 9) is a series of drawings which refer to the psychology of performance and aim to disclose an emotional landscape of stage fright. The aim is to reveal the process of thinking: they hover between mind control and the desire to leave one’s comfort zone. On first glance they seem strong, rigid and controlled – a longer look unfolds their imperfections and they become tender and sensitive in appearance through the grainy texture of several layers of thin tissue paper. These unique originals are neither pure drawings nor collages and their technique hides and reveals it’s own process simultaneously.

Fear or Excitement study no 1
is a piece is nearly devoid of apparent emotion however it’s absence, silence and the tandem-motion hint at a sense of desire. Two times the same but not the same, you can’t always get what you want but when you turn your back it might get hold of you. Allow vulnerability - detachment through awareness.

Fear or Excitement study no 2
is a video which is the opposite to study 1, emotion is clearly visible and completely takes over. Fear takes over one’s mind - how to claim back attention – exercising mind control. Fear has been induced and taps (temporarily) deep inside, however the rational mind puts the experience quickly back into perspective. It’s deep but short lived. The video is aiming to trigger compassion, create space and therefore freedom.

Fear or Excitement study no 3
Initial association to pornography and quick sexual excitement (which is ‘induced’ and short lived). Linking song with sex performance which references “How Singing in Public…” When boob shapes turn into balloons shapes the focus shifts onto the control of breathing as a mechanism to control your mind – in and out, in and out, in and out…